andrew and esther *
Friday, June 23, 2006 <3 the 43rd post of this blog
ahhh 43 posts alr... time realli flies... it's been approximately half a year since i met esther back in the old sajc band room last year in late december... soon i'll be stepping down from my duties in the band officially, n then my schooling years will more or less come to a halt for 2 years in national service b4 i pick it up again thereafter... i noe things r juz gonna happen increasingly fast as time goes till the A's r over... wif me gg into army n all, so many things r gonna change... but one thing for sure remains, which is my love for esther... as much as the environment n circumstances evolve over time, i firmly believe tt my heart remains where it was... well, as i was telling esther today, now tt it's almost half a year into the relationship n i'm leaving school b4 i noe it, i'm glad n quite sad at e same time... let's talk bout sorrows 1st then - humans r less able to adapt to changes as they get older, n e same goes fer mi... leaving school n stepping into a new phase of life is inevitable, but it's realli hard to leave these wonderful days we spend tgt in school everydae... which leads mi to how i'm realli glad... i hafta say tt these past 5 to 6 months was the most fulfilling period of time in my entire life up till this pt... many things i will nv forget, memories i will hold on fer e rest of my life, all happened within this past 6 months... well it's true there hav been good times n bad times, but it's all e bad times tt made us see how impt we were to each other it's during these bad times tt God wants to realli put us thru e test to see the good in everything... also, it's always the bad times tt make us grow up... wadeva it might be related to - school, band, family or even juz between us... we mature thru them...
n i realli wanna thank esther for this... it is thru her, i see how close n warm families can be, it is thru her i became more aware of myself as well as my surroundings, it is cos of her, i learnt the importance of thrift, it is cos of her, i'm more aware of my health, it is thru her, i see happiness n contentment of simplicity, n it is thru her constant encouragement, i became more patient n became so much more in control of my own temper..
n thanx once again fer being so encouraging even as we're preparing for exams tgt... if not fer her i think i wouldn't hav started revision... seeing her work hard preparing for fer exams, i realli feel so much more motivated to study... even when she noes it's realli a whole load to finish, especially fer bio, she juz goes on to study n study... her perseverence hit mi real hard inside n fer a moment i felt, "y am i not working as hard??" n it is then i became realli focused in preparation... well now tt exams r REALLI nearing n as we're reaching e peak of preparations, i realli dun wan her to get worried over other things besides her studies cos they're the priority... sincerely hope she can do well n let her hard work pay off...
well i would juz like to end off this post thanking esther once again, fer being in my life... i love you esther
<3 andrew
neveralone ;11:09 PM
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Friday, June 16, 2006 <3
Ahhs! nevermind about my date..that guy's driving me crazyy! "Hey You!!" Who ME??.. I think..I like you... ahh...whye am i blushing?? me?!... ahh! Why am i blushing too?! say, let's take a photo! okays, maybe one more.. And another one... Ahh! Just can't get enough of my dearest Andrew!
and another..
ahh! Can't get enough of it!...
neveralone ;4:45 AM
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ohh hi! =))
well, just wanted to let you know..(whoever's reading this blog =x)that if you were thinking yesterday was a normal day; just like any other day, you are VERY WRONG! wahahahahs` cause....it was our 5th month!! yeayyy!!
HAPPY 5th MONTH dear!!
*grins* just want to say how extremely thankful and honored i am to be Andrew's girlfriend! Although no amount of words can really express all that i'm feeling..
oh and abt yesterday...
we finally went out!
awwwh. it felt like such a long time since we did..
had been preparing for the band trip and studying for the past few weeks
we couldn't wait! hahahs
walked around Suntec City and places nearby..which brought back many other memories too!
talked alot
went mad over CDs
took quite a few photos
i bought dear a rose too!! =p
walked summore
ate at Ajisen, something we decided upon quite awhile ago! yumms! thanks for the food dear! sorry for always making you be the one to arrange the dates and locations..=x
sighs..though both of us werent feeling tht well that night, we still enjoyed ourselves, right?
Just each other's presence and smile is enough to keep us going, right dear?
hmm. can i say once again that i'm so glad for having dear by my side?
aiyah..i'm just so bad at expressing myself. But i'll try...=s
Ever since i came back..i was sort of feeling down
BUT he's just been great..never failing to ALWAYSalways be there for me..
ever so supportive, ever so encouraging..
helping me do the study timetable, making the extra effort to come to study at my house EVERYDAY with me, helping me in my studies as much as he can, making sure i'm on track, worrying for me, sharing his music with me...
for always trying to be there whenever i need him..like tonight when he came over to join me cause` i was having dinner alone. awwhs so sweet right?
and just sooooo sooo many other tinnyweeny little things he does (like his smile) that make me feel so touched, so special and so thankful..until this hour, i still cannot believe that he is truly mine!
ahhhs okaays. back from a long absence from talking on the phone with dear..
the last sentence was like typed out more than an hour ago?! hahahs...
well, we talked alot (obviously) and reminisced ALOT..omg, i could have just gone on forever and ever..
WOW...so dear is soo popular one huh..shows how lucky i am to get him >.<
yup we were talking about how the tiny decisions that we made for the past years of our life contributed in getting us together..
like if Andrew hadn't insisted on playing the saxophone in Sec. 1, or if he chose to put VJC as his first choice instead...yeap
aargh..the thot of things turning out otherwise is quite sad..cause` i wouldn't have gotten to know Andrew. Life would then be so different now..probably aimless for me?
oh, and i want to say that we are officially together now..cause` i just officially said YES to him to be his girlfriend! heeheeheee...
k lar..shall spare readers from another exhausting long entry...=p
one last thing before i go! I LOVE YOU ANDREW!! =)
can't say enough of tht..just lyke hw i can't say enough thank-yous
oh, and did i mention I LOVE ANDREW! happyhappy 5th month and 1 & 1/4 days!
<3
esther
neveralone ;1:30 AM
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Monday, June 12, 2006 <3
ahh, yes i'm BACK as you would have known from Andrew's previous entry. =))
Yup, i missed him loads too on the trip and i couldn't wait to come back (while others were reluctant to). So sorry for making dear so lost the last 8days and i hope i can make it up to you in some way.
But...well was just feeling abit down (still am maybe), probably due to having to get back to life after all the high-ness of the band trip. Boring old life. SIGHS. Yep..which has been making Andrew feel worried and down too. And i'm just really sorry for things to turn out this way. It was all supposed to be better when i came back. It was what Andrew had been looking forward to the past 8days. He was supposed to feel better again..but looks like i just made it worse?
But i really really really wanna thank Andrew for EVERYTHING. =))
for always being there for me and trying to make things better, although i know he isn't feeling any better either. thanks for always caring so much and paying attention to such tiny little details of me. For always knowing that something is wrong, no matter how tiny and how much i try not to show it. And always assuring me and never failing to touch my heart with how much he cares and how he'd always be there, no matter what. awwhs..
ohoh! and for doing so many things for me before the trip too! You know, the dinner he cooked for me, for bringing me out that day, for sending me to the airport, making breakfast for me, for the book he wrote for me, the songs in the MP3, for fetching me from the airport, and even for blogging those entries while i was away...
I JUST LOVE YOU DEAR.
ain't i just lucky. YES. =p
LOVE YOU TO BITTTS.
it'll all get better; all because you were there
<3>
esther.
neveralone ;10:57 PM
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Sunday, June 11, 2006 <3 announcement!!
finally!!! esther's back!!! hahaha ok i'm so so excited eh??? yeap... juz went to fetch her from e airport... so thot i post a REALLI short entry...
well well my long wait n anticipation fer her return is finally over!! it's realli a load off my mind... i wuz still all worried (n paranoid) 24hrs ago... thank God she's fine n healthy =))
juz wanna shout out: I LOVE ESTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tt's e end of my announcement =)
<3 andrew
neveralone ;10:27 AM
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006 <3 sleepless nites...
ahhh it's been 4 days alr... 4 more days to go... n i'm already turning into some nocturnal animal... my whole body clock seems to be screwed up!!! well 1stly, i woke up at like 1pm on monday afternoon... after sleeping at 2am tt morning cos i juz can't fall asleep!! ok so i slept at bout 3am this morning??? tossing n turning n wat hav u... haiz... n woke up 3 hours later cos i hav to go down to CMPB fer a blood test... hmmm thank God esther's been calling every nite... at least i dun feel so empty... nth could've helped more than her voice... realli... i mean, at least tt's wat i look forward to every single nite =)) it's hard to imagine how her voice sounds as if she's next to mi, when she's actualli miles n miles away... everydae i'll listen to e cds she burnt fer mi... how nice, all e songs she put in there... it juz reminds mi of her... n some songs r juz wayeeeeeeeeeeee sappy... makes mi feel like crying... well well it's juz 4 more days... i've planned them so as to minimize stoning time... well like i said, 4 days might seem short... then again, e past 4 days seem lightyears away... well tonite's juz as sleepless as e past 3 nites... n guess wat, i napped from 4-8pm juz now... so well i can kiss goodbye to my bed fer e next 3 hours at least... or maybe i'll try to fall asleep as much as i can... either way, i miss u esther... loads n loads... can't wait fer sundae morning...
juz another short entry by mi...
<3 andrew
neveralone ;11:46 PM
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Saturday, June 03, 2006 <3 8 days?? 192 hours?? 11520 minutes?? 691200 seconds??
how long is 8 days?? is time merely linear?? or is it so much more than just minutes and seconds?? 8 days leading up to todae was not only eventful but also memorable and exciting... ahh... let's see... shall begin wif last thur... made baked rice fer her!!! n we had a nice dinner tgt alongside wif frank sinatra's music in e background... how i wished those moments nv fade away... fridae was rather uneventful followed by an unforgettable saturdae when we went fer my family barbeque session at aloha changi!! hmmm my relatives and my gramps seemed to hav quite a good impression of her =)) well it wuz quite fun tt dae... how we attempted to start e fire n esther getting herself bz fanning n flipping... every second was juz absolute bliss... n sundae was not even e usual one where i sent her home after piano (cos she had no piano lessons!!)... she had some achievement ceremony organized by her previous tuition centre at bayview hotel, which i went to pick her up too =) thereafter, we walked ard in bugis junction... ahhh it's juz so nice seeing her getting so excited and happy when we saw nice clothes and shoes... never has window shopping been so fun and engaging in my entire life... well tt brings us to e beginning of e june vacations... which is her prep week fer this trip which separates us physically fer the 8 days... even in this prep week, we spent a great deal of time tgt, which started wif me coaching her in fantasy variations... haha i thot i'd totalli shattered her pride pointing out all her weak pts... but i realli gotta say this again, she's gort so much more potential in sax playing than mi! so we went to amk to find her ensemble scores n she treated mi to chicken chop!!! i hafta say tue was a LONG LONG day... started wif her having band in e morning n we met up fer a quick lunch... e whole episode started when she gort the cleaning swab stuck in the soprano sax... we tried to remove it by ourselves initially but it failed badly... thank God i knew this repairman n so i contacted him n we brought e saxophone to pasir ris where he extracted e stuck cloth... it was realli a sigh of relief, n e load-off-my-mind look was excpetionally evident on esther's face... tt was all i needed to see... nth matters more than tt... tt evening, we attended one of e most dreadful concert of our lives... but oh wells e nice part was tt we sat through e entire concert wif e same pair of eyes n ears n shared comments throughout... hmmm i juz waited fer her to end band on wed, n we went to bread talk bistro at j8 after tt fer some bread n cake action!! haha... oh yes, went to her house tt evening to borrow some mirin n mayonnaise n also shopped at e supermarket near her place to prepare fer e picnic which took place after her dental, which she was late fer, e following day... so we went to e botanical gardens n treated ourselves wif e rice balls n sandwiches i made... it's always so good to see e joy on her face as she enjoys e food i made... it's juz a sense of fulfillment n satisfaction whenever tt happens... it's a deep joy from within... n so tt leads us to yesterdae where i went back to school to help out a bit wif their final packing b4 e trip b4 sending her home n showing her e book i've been preparing e whole week fer her to bring along wif her on e trip (i shall let her talk bout e contents of e book when she returns)... it's great to see her happy, great to haf her in my life, great loving her...
todae, i woke up at 4.30am to prepare egg sandwiches fer her, knowing she won't eat on e plane... ahhh sending off wasn't so saddening initially... but it juz seems to build up as e moment for checking in nears... my heart gort heavier as e seconds tick by, counting down to e next 691200 seconds of her absence... ahhh didn't noe it would feel so so so bad till 2 hours ago when i was juz going mad! haha... it's juz a tiny empty space from within waiting to be filled... juz like how a balloon wif even a tiny hole can nv ever fill up... well she burnt 4cds wif lovely songs in them fer mi... i juz love those!! it's such a commendable effort as she onli did it last nite!! ahh make mi feel so bad cos she stayed up so late (tho i stayed later) juz to do tt thing which means a world to mi... sorrie for making her upset her mom (tt is e top "no-no" on e list n we realli broke it this time)... well after saying so much, there's still 7 more days from tmr onwards... 8 days might seem so short, but then again... any 8 days in our journey is juz as eventful n colourful, even after her trip where we're gg to go intensive on exams prep... everything is juz different wif her presence; e most mundane thing can hav colours to it wif juz her presence... well i hope esther enjoys her trip, even wif my absence... quote of e week: absence makes e heart fonder. i love u esther <3 <3 <3
this wuz taken on last sat morning... ahhh she's juz so so so so so adorable n beautiful!!! i mean, e picture says it all... thank God i caught her in e act hahaha...
we spent some time taking photos b4 e concert opposite e concert hall by e s'pore river haha... i dun look godd but she sure does eh??
ok we seem to juz enjoy taking photos like tt huh... no variations haha... but ya we do enjoy it =)
we were juz having sandwiches in e botanical gardens... memorable times of my life...
hmmm memories... all tt stuff in e past 11520 mins of my life... our journey tgt... i dunno wat e next 7 days hold fer mi... but one thing fer sure... i'm into mugging alr... hahaha... muz work hard 1stly cos studies is STILL e priority, 2ndly, cos block test is coming, n 3rd to occupy my mind so i dun think so much... but anyhow, i'll still think of her... i love u esther...
<3 andrew
neveralone ;8:52 PM
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